There are various ways people can use to end their lives, but when it comes to jumping from height, it always makes me wonder how much courage it requires to take that step, and do they regret as they are falling down before hitting the ground? Are they terrified? Do they think about going back?

This is the third patient in the past 3 weeks.

The first two both were longstanding depressed patients, both had attempted suicide in their history, so though it was heartbreaking, at least it didn’t shock us as much as the one who chose to jump off from an apartment far away from his house this week.

He had been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia for years. Never a negative person, he could function well in work and with family, maintaining with medicine.

Nobody would have anticipated that. Not even his caring sister. And with the method he chose to terminate his life, he does show how determined he was.

So never think that people with depression are the only ones who would attempt suicide.

So never think that those who think about suicide would always mention it before the attempts.

So never think that long-term mentally ill patient without previous suicide attempt are very unlikely to commit suicide.

Also, never think the reason everyone suffering from mental illness end their lives due to their mental illness, there are still various other possible explanations, and suffering from mental illness, is just one of them.

Please give yourself a second chance. Malaysia suicide hotlines:

The Befrienders
03-7956 8144/ 03-7956 8145
www.befrienders.org.my

Life Line Association Malaysia
03-4265 7995
http://lifeline.org.my/cn/

Agape Counselling Center Malaysia
03-7785 5955 / 03-7781 0800
http://www.agape.org.my

If you come across someone who’s suicidal: https://huibee.com/2020/05/somebody-you-know-is-suicidal/